Even those who cannot work (despite wishing to very much) still sometimes start their weeks on Monday. I know I do. In addition to taking care of my own chronic illness, I also care for my elderly dog, Nim (often seen in the rotating banner pictures above), who has liver, lung, heart, and intestinal issues. Which, if you think about it, is hardly a surprise, considering she’s a medium-sized dog and turned 13 in March, which is in the 90s for a dog of her size.
I do have a routine, though if you compare it to those of you who work, it’s rather sedated. I wake up am hour before I need to feed Nim her first meal of the day, which is at 9. I have to wake up an hour early, in order to allow for my meds to kick in as well as my usual pain to settle. When I wake up, pain is the first thing I notice – usually since it often wakes me before my alarm does. Despite the meds I take kicking in, the pain remains.
Luckily, caring for Nim is distracting and rewarding, so I don’t have to tarry long on my own issues. Nim’s meals are such that you could set your watch to, and there’s good reason for that, since any change can hurt her. That is the last thing I ever want, so you can imagine that no matter how foul I feel, I make time for Nim’s 9. (Though on bad days, if I can, I do ask for help, especially on days that leave me bedridden.)
Once the gentle dust that gets kicked up settles again, Nim and I both take the morning to rest and let our minds, meds, and bellies settle. It’s usually later in the day that I can finally manage to eat, since hunger varies despite my fatness. Nim’s a good dog, and never begs, though she does like to sit close to me to get a noseful, which I don’t mind.
Following that, it also varies. Often, I do have doctors to see, and sometimes the dust never settles until I’m gone from the house. And despite her age, unless properly babyproofed, Nim can and will find her long nose in trouble if left with things she shouldn’t eat.
I guess you can say when I leave the house, I’m anxious. In the past two years that I’ve been jobless, I’ve become accustomed to living very much like a hermit, one who lives indoors and only leaves if needs wants. And even though I really want to say that I’ve gotten better in the past two years, unfortunately I can’t claim it honestly, at least not 100%.
The problem with IBS-C is that it’s so unpredictable. Even if I eat the exact same menu every day, which definitely works for many people, it doesn’t seem to work for me. I seem to go through periods in which a certain food is fine for a while, but then it starts to get bad and I have to switch to something else. I suppose that’s where the moderation rule comes into effect, but again you can see how hard it can be to find a right method.
So yeah. I guess you could say that my life is rich with routine, but it also can be quite unpredictable because of my bowels. Even the most seemingly normal of days can have its forks in the road, and often, they usually also hurt, too.
At least I’m lucky enough to have a pup to love. Without her, I’d be too lonely to bear.
Thanks for reading =3!